Eversince I started blogging (10 days back) I'd been contemplating on dedicating one of my posts to the most important person in my life..."a man," and he is my father. I’m just not HERE without my father and I mean it in every sense of it; be it physically, biologically, mentally, emotionally, or professionally. To me, he is not a father alone, but a friend, a guide and a philosopher too.
Curiosity and refusal have been the order of my childhood and I realize it now though. But it is now I am fathomed by the fact that he's more than willing to give a clear answer to all of my questions. Tell you what? There have never been one liners and never one without a logic. I didn’t want to say that we have had long hours of discussion, Nope we never had! But he’s not fed me with those calorie-rich baby foods alone he gave me the fodder to think and ink to my writing muscles!
As of now, I find it very difficult to talk a thing or two with him, still it is the same ol' feeling of hero worship I have for him. If you ask me did he play with me when I were a child, I would say, No, never. We've never had so much of time together playing or laughing. But used to be a fire just the other side of his persona! I have attributed this to be the reason for his weird personality, but I realized once I was mature enough it is that fire that did not want to overprotect me or make me their mere shadow, and it is that fire that lit up and infused in me as extra confidence and guts (that I traveled 600 miles all by myself, safely as a student!), the same fire gave me strength to accept my failures and ask me to face them over again and again!!
Curiosity and refusal have been the order of my childhood and I realize it now though. But it is now I am fathomed by the fact that he's more than willing to give a clear answer to all of my questions. Tell you what? There have never been one liners and never one without a logic. I didn’t want to say that we have had long hours of discussion, Nope we never had! But he’s not fed me with those calorie-rich baby foods alone he gave me the fodder to think and ink to my writing muscles!
As of now, I find it very difficult to talk a thing or two with him, still it is the same ol' feeling of hero worship I have for him. If you ask me did he play with me when I were a child, I would say, No, never. We've never had so much of time together playing or laughing. But used to be a fire just the other side of his persona! I have attributed this to be the reason for his weird personality, but I realized once I was mature enough it is that fire that did not want to overprotect me or make me their mere shadow, and it is that fire that lit up and infused in me as extra confidence and guts (that I traveled 600 miles all by myself, safely as a student!), the same fire gave me strength to accept my failures and ask me to face them over again and again!!
That’s not all at all to his persona. He is more than a human at heart with a generosity that knew no bounds! I am sometimes aghast by these qualities. He would ask his domestic help to call up her parents from his phone and would increase her payment and pay a bonus without she having to put in a word, saying its only human to do so when he himself liked to receive hike or bonus as a central government employee.
Again, he is ruthlessly frank when it comes to analyzing anyone. It brought him friends and foes, but I believe it is his order no matter he has made friends or enemies. So father, I just love the way you are! It doesn’t matter we didn’t have a laughter and fun-filled times, you still are my hero …hero….hero…!!
Again, he is ruthlessly frank when it comes to analyzing anyone. It brought him friends and foes, but I believe it is his order no matter he has made friends or enemies. So father, I just love the way you are! It doesn’t matter we didn’t have a laughter and fun-filled times, you still are my hero …hero….hero…!!
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